The Tired, The Worn, The Broken aka The Victorious Woman

The last three years have been rough to say the least. I am tired, I am worn out from working 75 hours a week in 5 days, yes you read that correctly. I am broken, mentally, physically and emotionally BUT...

I am a victorious woman. Why? Because I refuse to give up or in. I will not be defeated. It is not about how many times I fall but about how many times I get up.

That is why I am victorious. I get up over and over and over again and will continue to do so until I draw my last breath.

Welcome to a Secret Subject Swap. This week 11 brave bloggers picked a secret subject for someone else and were assigned a secret subject to interpret in their own style. Today we are all simultaneously divulging our topics and submitting our posts. 

My subject... is: Reality TV, do you watch it? Whether you do or not, do you think it’s actually reality or is that a farce and they’re really scripted? What would the theme of a reality show about you be?

It was submitted by: http://Bakinginatornado.com  

Well Karen my dear friend, I do believe that a lot if not all of the "reality" shows are scripted to a point. Some things happen and the director says "hey wait, that was good but let's try this, do it again and roll film" and so it goes. From reality to scripted. The ones that were real didn't last long or have changed so drastically you know it is scripted.

If my life were a reality show, it would definitely be "The Tired, The Worn, The Broken Victorious Woman" 

I will not go into detail but my life has been a LifeTime movie, especially the last 10 months. It is ridiculous but here I stand and stand I will because I am too damn hard-headed and stubborn to do anything else.

You can beat me, threaten me, stalk me and I will keep going. I promise with every breath in me, I will not stop and I will not back down. I am and will continue to be The Victorious Woman!

Here are links to all the sites now featuring Secret Subject Swap posts.  Sit back, grab a cup, and check them all out. See you there:

Baking In A Tornado                        http://www.BakingInATornado.com  

Cognitive Script                         https://cognitivescript.blogspot.com/

The Blogging 911                   http://theblogging911.com/blog

The Lieber Family Blog                     http://thelieberfamily.com

The Bergham Chronicles                  http://berghamchronicles.blogspot.com

Southern Belle Charm                    http://www.southernbellecharm.com 

Bookworm in the Kitchen                 http://www.bookwormkitchen.com/   

Never Ever Give Up Hope                http://batteredhope.blogspot.com  

TaylorLife                                     http://www.TaylorLife.com    

Sparkly Poetic Weirdo                       http://sparklyjenn.blogspot.com

Climaxed                                      http://climaxedtheblog.blogspot.com

Forgiveness

Forgiveness

Once, there was a time

I thought I would never heal.

Time marches on,

      life happens,

            hearts begin to mend.

My thoughts turn to you,

to happier times once shared.

I could not get you out of my mind.

You never left my heart.

     I gave in.

Forgiveness happened.

     We talked,

          we laughed,

               we healed,

                    we reconnected.

The love was still there,

we could no longer fight it.

Look at us now,

happy, whole and together.

It's amazing what happens when you forgive.

     Life moves forward,

          love blooms,

               clouds clear.

The storms may rage,

but you no longer weather them alone.

Standing on a hill looking down,

I can see clearly now

     YOU. . . my soulmate

     YOU. . . my love

     YOU. . . my forever

It's amazing what happens when you forgive

Assumptions are Dangerous

Assumptions are dangerous or as my boys youth pastor used to say "don't assume anything because you will make yourself the first three letters". The first time I heard him say that I thought it was awful and HOW DARE he say such a thing to my boys and our youth.

Well over the years I have learned just how true it is.

More times than not I have found myself jumping to conclusions due to my assuming things and found that I looked and or sounded like an ass. There ya go, the first three letters.

Never would I imagine that his words would ring true over and over again. Like the time I received an email from a friend, it was almost cryptic in nature, and left a ton of open ended questions. Did I ask? No. Who was I to question what they were saying, instead it was much easier to come up with my own  conclusions and assume. There again, ass.

The hideous thoughts we have, jumping to conclusions, never taking into consideration ALL possibilities but instead falling head first into a sea of self righteous indignation...oh wait, what. I'm the only one?

Tonight I sit here, waiting for someone to walk through the door, questions on my mind, assumptions of what they REALLY meant by an earlier comment, accusations in my head like those damn flying monkeys that tormented Dorothy. I have grown, I have learned a few things, so I sit here, waiting. No jumping to conclusions but asking at the right time, what did they mean, what was the reason behind their comment and what role do I play in this. Yes, I have learned a lot, grown, mostly through being damaged, hurt, crushed even. Tonight I simply say, you know your comment earlier today caused me concern, even hurt my feelings just a tad. Can we discuss it? Will you elaborate on what you said, spell it out, make it clear? Yes, I've learned a lot and it has had a high price but it has been worth every moment to find myself where I am right now.

Your words are:

never ~ jumping ~ tonight ~ email ~ hideous

They were submitted by: http://www.bookwormkitchen.com/                           

Today’s post is a writing challenge. This is how it works: participating bloggers picked 4 – 6 words or short phrases for someone else to craft into a post. All words must be used at least once and all the posts will be unique as each writer has received their own set of words. That’s the challenge, here’s a fun twist; no one who’s participating knows who got their words and in what direction the writer will take them. Until now.

At the end of this post you’ll find links to the other blogs featuring this challenge. Check them all out, see what words they got and how they used them. 

Links to the other “Use Your Words” posts:

Baking In A Tornado                  http://www.bakinginatornado.com

The Blogging 911                   http://theblogging911.com/blog

On the Border                           http://dlt-lifeontheranch.blogspot.com/

The Bergham Chronicles                  http://berghamchronicles.blogspot.com    

Southern Belle Charm                    http://www.southernbellecharm.com

Bookworm in the Kitchen                  http://www.bookwormkitchen.com/  

Part-time Working Hockey Mom            http://thethreegerbers.blogspot.ch/

Climaxed                                            http://climaxedtheblog.blogspot.com 

Can I "Admit You're Happy" - poetry challenge

Once a month several of us, brave folks who want to be poets, get together on a theme and write down our verse. Some are fabulous at it, some are brave like me. This month the theme... "Admit You're Happy" this was difficult for me. I have never given myself permission to be happy unless it was okay with "him" whoever "him" was at the time.
Domestic violence is at epidemic proportions these days and it's not just women being abused. Men are abused but keep silent more than women. If you are in a domestic abuse situation PLEASE seek help, there is help out there, and yes it is scary to speak up.
Domestic Abuse Hotline
1-800-799-7233
But please, please do if not for yourself, for those who really love you and care.

Can I...
Admit You're Happy
Can I...
Admit I stopped caring the day you left
Can I...
Be myself for once in my life
Can I...
Walk around and smile
and not feel guilty
Can I...
Really be happy without you
Can I...
move forward
Can I...
live a full life without you
Can I...
get healing from the abuse
Can I...
tell my story
Can I...
help others from what I've learned
Can I...
find my voice
Can I...
Admit I'm Happy?
yes
YES I CAN

The other poems...
Karen at Baking In A Tornado
http://www.bakinginatornado.com/2017/08/admit-youre-happy-august-poetry.html

Lydia at Cluttered Genius
http://www.clutteredgenius.com/?p=9070

Diane:
https://dlt-lifeontheranch.blogspot.com/2017/08/admitted.html

What is life about?

I do not know the original author but a dear friend of mine posted this one Facebook...it spoke to me and I wanted to share.


When I  woke up this morning, I asked myself,

"What is life about?"

I found the answer in my room...

The fan said, "Be cool."

The roof said, "Aim high."

The window said, "See the world!"

The clock said, "Every minute is precious."

The mirror said, "Reflect before you act."

The calendar said, "Be up to date."

The door said, "Push hard for your goals."

The floor said, "Kneel down and pray."